Frustrated…Just so so frustrated
Over everything. Just everything. But, I was trying to stay patient. Trying my best to hang on. But sometimes you just go numb and your feelings don’t know where to go. You go from sadness to anger to trying to build yourself up again to then just giving in and throwing your arms up in frustration. I feel like every year it’s something new. Some new challenge. Some hard thing to overcome. And of course it always looks like everyone else is doing better. Whether it’s true or not it helps your own pity party.
What drove this blog today? Well, I’ve been trying to be the most patient person I can be. More patient then ever before. Hubby lost his job about 3 months ago and he’s having a hard time finding a job. He puts in something every day but no real bites come through. Interviews happen but there is always something he is lacking that they want. Finally something hopeful comes his way.
- Husband had a phone job interview about 3 weeks ago.
- Then we wait to see if they ever call back.
- They do call back and set up a panel interview. We wait for that day to come (following week).
- Interview day comes and hubby says it goes really well. Now wait to hear back.
- Days later (on a Thurs) finally hear something back. Hubby needs to do one more phone interview with the guy he would be working with if hired. Sounds like it’s pratically in the bag. Interview scheduled for Monday 1:00. Need to be patient just another while longer.
- Monday comes and I’m hopeful. 1:00 comes and no call. Grrr. Hubby calls HR to see if he missed something but they tell him the boss guy forgot interview. Reschedules it for 5:00.
- 5:00 comes and no call again. Super grrrr. Hubby calls and HR says they will try and find out what happened tomorrow.
All this waiting is driving me crazy. He submits his resume and application so you wait days to hear back. Then if you do hear back, you wait for the interview day. Then you wait to see if they want to hire you. They all say they will call whether they will hire your or not but they really don’t. You wait, wait, wait and wait. And when you think you have followed all the rules of being as patient as possible the powers that be make you wait just a little more. Squeezing just one more ounce of hope you have.
My patience is being tested. My spirit is slowing wearing down. Depression has come and gone during this last 3 or 4 months and it’s finally winning. If depression and I were in an arm wrestling match I think I’m about an inch away from touching the table and losing.
Oh, and I’ve gained about 8 pounds. Not good.
oh, it’s so brutal isn’t it? we had that again this year. these 2 jobs kept pushing off the decision, wouldn’t even get back to my hubby, but wouldn’t say no. these were about us moving back to SF or down to DC, so it was a big deal. as a pregnant woman i finally flipped and was like ENOUGH! he had to throw doen the gauntlet to force a decision…it was so incredibly stressful - i REALLY feel for you. Depression waits for these moments to take hold. WW, you are stronger than it, pump up those muscles and fight back! you can do it! some hugs for you, too (((WW)))
I am so sorry you are going thru these hard times WW. I know how stressful it can be. My husband lost his job about 3 years after we had Alexa and it has been topsy turvy since then. He was finally recalled last March but Man what a tough few years this has been. Hang in there the best you can!! If you need anything Im here. I definetly understand!!! ((Hugs to you WW))
Hang in there WW, things will get better. I will keep you and hubby in prayers.
I went through similar feelings when my husband left for Iraq for the year. Just the general feeling that I was sick and tired of never being able to just be happy and not have bad things happened. It seems like no matter what, without fail, when he leaves things just fall apart at the seems. One of those Murphy’s laws. Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong. I got so frustrated and mad and got soooo tired of having to deal with it all on my own. Depression of course settled in and made itself at home in my soul. It was a little bit of Heaven when we had him home for a two week visit in July and then when he left again I felt the depression creeping in again as little things kept going wrong all over again. Frustration so easily turns to depression. Depression is ugly monster, I hope that you can get away from it soon. I pray that you hear from the guy your husband is supposed to hear from very soon and I pray that he gets the job. You deserve happiness, both of you do! In the mean time, fight that depression! Hang in there! ***hugs***
Hang in there girl!!! I KNOW where you are at right now (only I am the one looking for a job instead of hubby and I can’t even get a good call back on ANYTHING). Now, we are stuck with NO vehicle (I promise you, it CAN get worse). I know how you feel. Sheer desperation. All hope is gone. You are just waiting on the next “shoe to fall”.
I can’t help alot except to say—HANG IN THERE. It will get better. I know it doesn’t seem like it right now, but it will. I have had a bad day today with my eating as well. I can only imagine what will happen on the scales this week (grrrr). I figure I will pick myself back up, put the pieces together and start anew tomorrow.
Please, if you need someone to talk to, I am here for you. You have been a true inspiration to me and I can only hope that I could be there for you.
Hugs,
Sandi
I am truly sorry to hear about your situation. I know how you feel. Let me first just say, not everyone else is doing better. Sometimes all you can do is smile and keep going. Unfortunately there is no life manual, although I wish there were one. Something to tell us what we should do, what all the right answers are, and why things happen the way they do. All I can tell you is, this too shall pass. You will come out stronger on the other side. Hang in there, keep your chin up and know that you are thought of and prayed for.
Hi WW….I am sad to hear about your current situation but this is a temporary situation and it will get better for you guys…sometimes you have to hit a “rough patch” to truly appreciate the good when it happens and it will!! May I just tell you that a few weeks ago I signed into this site not really knowing what to expect and you were there to welcome me and offer some really great advice(which I have taken…soooooooooo YOU NEED TO STAY STRONG for ALL OF US,because you are an inspiration to many people) and I myself am very prone to depression and self defeating thoughts and YOU need to be strong for me,ok?Ask yourself what would Wonder Woman do in this situation…I think she might putting that “HOT” outfit and gold bracelets and she would then kick some ASS…do the same!
I’m counting on YOU!! M
it will be ok…did you read my blog by any chance? did you see my hubby worked today? Remember, I have been waiting since Dec 2007!
The blog was about new beginnings…and there is a really good scripture on it…maybe it would bless you to read it!
It isn’t the best job, but it IS something…
God will provide…
don’t give up…remember how big He is…and how much He loves you.
I have no advise. It all just sucks. Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping that things get better.
Oh WW!!! Breathe and remember that you have to have faith.
I do know that we’ve had a job in our company open for about 3 months now and they’ve interviewed probably 30 people (that I’m sure need a job) and they are just now calling back for 2nd interviews. Depending on the job, it’s a slow, slow process. Good luck and maybe a nice toddy before bed would make you feel better.
Take that frustration out in exercise.
Hey girl…there’s nothing I can say to make things better for you and your hubby, I know. But, how about a big hug…why dont you pass one on to hubby too. HUGS. I’ll be sending up prayers for you and hubby. God bless.
Love Debbie
Hang in there, girl!
I am thinking of you and sending lots of good thoughts and prayers your way!
Big HUGS!
Patience is a hard thing. I can so empathize with how you are feeling, and even though one more ounce of hope has been pulled from you, there is still some left. Never EVER EVERRRRR give up hope. It WILL work out as long as you never give up the hope. Get mad, go break some plates, scream your frustrations to God, but never give up hope. You do that, and it WILL work out.
Big squishy HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan
Thoughts with you today, WW. I’m sorry you are going through so much sweetie. But hang in there with your sweet spirit and things will get better.
Love ya tons!
I am so sorry, the process is so horrible. hang in there!
Wonder Woman keep the faith it teaches us to give our worries to him in exchange for his peace. I am certain everything will work out for you if you can remember that. I’ll pray for you meanwhile.
Wonder Woman, I’m so sorry your going through this ordeal. Please stay strong, stay positive and have faith. I’ll pray that he gets that last interview and get that job. The economy and job market is horrible right now and I can relate to your struggle all too well.
The 8 lbs you will lose, I know you will.
Aah! WW hubby will get that job you will see, He always provides you know that. Your weight will come off too with a little patience, perseverance and faith and you know that too, right? Linda
My husband was out of work for a year… and it was horrible!! and I understand the feelings about waiting….but when its over…. Life will get back to normal. This is a very dark cloud hanging over you right now…Just make sure not to let this ruin every aspect of yoru life (your weight for example) Do the positive things you have control over and eventually when the bad things you have no control over go away…. you will just be able to reap the rewards…
Wishing you tons of luck… keep moving keep living…. that is how to battle depression. Love yourself!!!
Good luck!
I have satarted looking for a new job and have gained 4 lbs since that has started, it is trying. I need something different. I hope they work things out and your hubby gets this job (hugs) I put in a resume at a place downtown I would love to get it….God I hope they call. LOL
And prospective employers are so insensitive. They dont think about all the applicants just sitting & waiting. Only one time in my life have I had someone call and actually tell me they selected another candidate. I wasnt even upset..just happy someone told me something.
There is a job out there for your hubby. I just know it. Maybe this one is it…because God is testing his patience & yours. I will keep praying for you. hang in there.
I am so sorry, that is so frustrating, I have sure been there. I do know it looks darkest right before it gets better. Hugs, Kama
Hang in there sweetie! We are all here for you…there is nothing we can do to change it for you but we are here to listen so anytime you need to get it off your chest we’ll be here.
Wonder Woman,
Hang in there. You are tougher than you think. Nobody with the Nickname Wonder Woman throws in the towel. You are a Devine Child of the universe and have inspired so many people on this Blog (me included). Don’t worry about the uncertainty, just remain faithful. You and your hubby will come through this. My husband was out of work for over two (2) years so I know all too well how you are feeling right about now. Just try and concentrate on keeping each others’ spirits up. That job will come. Take care and please feel better my friend.
D.
Sorry I am a bit late to this blog, and maybe things have looked up for you since this…But I just wanted to say that a few years back, I was out of ajob for 7 weeks…It was the MOST depressing time of my life..I went on a total of 28 interviews…UGH…Several were 2nd and 3rd call back interviews…Could not secure the job…I was so depressed and frustrated…So please please please try to stay strong…FOr I cant imagine how hard it is on you, but I bet your husband is taking it even harder…You really start feeling like a failure after a while, and I imagine for a man, who has a wife and children to support, its even more so…So heres hoping and praying things start to look up for you guys…And as you so often tell us when we need it…Remember, when you cant control anything else in your life, remember, you CAN control the food…So good luck!!!! To you and your family…