The truth is…..and now I don’t want to do anything.
Well here goes nothing. I’m just going to write it out and hit publish and leave it at that. About 2 months ago my husband lost his job. We have savings and it’s been helping alot but I am so scared that he won’t find anything soon. He’s been putting in applications and he has bites but no one has offered anything. He’s made changes to his resume and all that. It’s just getting really stressful. I haven’t told people around me too much and that includes family because I cannot stand someone feeling sorry for me or the constant “has he found work yet?” being asked. So I’m holding alot of things in until now. I have really tried to stay upbeat and hopeful but there are times when I feel more depressed and uncertain of what’s going to happen.
That brings me to now. I had planned on going running today. I’ve been drinking my water to get ready for it. I’m still “hurting” from my b-day weekend but I really wanted to force myself to go and run today. But then the hubby came home from two interviews and he said one told him he was overqualified and the other wanted someone who knew a certain kind of software (but they didn’t mention that in the ad) so both were a waste of time. I was crushed. I wanted to hear something positive but it wasn’t happening. Now I just want to eat something major. I don’t really consider myself an emotional eater but when something big happens I get this funny feeling to just chomp on something bad. I don’t even want to go running now. I’m like “why go running? Why bother? There are other things to worry about. I’m just kidding myself that everything is fine when it’s not”. I don’t know. I’ll probably go but this is just weighing so heavy on my heart right now. I feel like my spirit is breaking little by little. I see it in my husband too. We are still praying and I still have hope but today is just not my best day. I just want to curl up and go to bed and hope everything is good when I wake up. Thanks for listening. Hey, at least I didn’t cry while I wrote this so that’s a good thing.
I have been ther eso many times. Not just about the husband, but myself. Don’t you dare let yourself, think, that you shouldn’t keep on taking care of yourself. It is because you do, that you are able to handle it so well. There were so many times in my life, where I thought the same thing…why bother? But in the end, I and my family suffered because, when you don’t take care of yourself it is harder to cope. You wil get through tis…I am going through a similiar situation, and all it takes is faith and patience.
Hey WW…I know exactly how you feel my husband was out of work for what seemed like eternity. Here in Michigan jobs are real hard to come by. Thankfully God sent something his way. During that time I felt exactly like that. I didn’t want to get out of bed, I didn’t want to go anywhere or do anything. I am a huge emotional eater, so you know how I spent most of my time. Go running….exercise is a great way to combat stress. You have come so far and been an inspiration to so many. There have been many times in my short journey here that you have lifted my spirits and motivated me to do the right thing. Do not give this fight up. God will send the right job for your husband…..have faith. Everything will be just fine you just have to believe. Most of all believe in yourself. You are a strong woman….if you can lose all that weight you can get through anything. I will send up a prayer for your husband in hopes that the right job lands in his lap soon. Never give up the fight. Much love. Now get off your butt and get to running girl!!!
Aah! WW you are such a beautiful, loving, spiritual woman He will take care of you of this I am certain. I will burn a candle tonight for you so hubby will find a job. I will continue to pray also. Remember with Him all things are possible. Luv Ya! sista!
Thank you for sharing with us. As others noted, you have been a source of inspiration to me as well. When I need words of encouragement you are there. Last week when I had my why bother moment - you guys were there to encourage me to keep going. You guys both sound tenacious, he’s doing his part in putting out applications; sooner or later one will go through successfully.
I do know how you feel. My boyfriend had a hard time finding a job for 6 months. We lived off my income and it was hard as it was from paycheck to paycheck. He is employed now but the payroll is always off and his check is always short. Because he’s doing delivery service with his own vehicle, we spend about $400 on gas every two weeks and when his check is short, it makes me want to scream. We are constantly on a budget.
I encourage to run because I’m about to take off for my kickboxing class.
You are Wonder Woman and I believe in you!
Hang in there girl, been there myself. I am an emotional eater! It is hard sometimes to force myself to do what I don’t want to do, but I know if I do it, I will actually feel better for doing it! I know I cannot always control what is happening around me or too me, but becoming healthy through healthier choices in both food and excercise is something I can control.
You are such an inspiration to me! I am sending good thoughts and prayers your way!
Biggest HUGS!
Girl I hate to down play what you have going on, but it could be emotionally worse. I honestly wish it was money that we (me and my husband)were having issues with. I won’t go into it too publicly at this time, but needless to say it’s nothing that a bottle of vodka and a complete emotional breakdown won’t help.
Just find support in those around you. It’s not that they feel sorry for you…it’s that they LOVE you. Sometimes you have to let others in and allow them to love and care for you. Things will work out!!!
Hang in there girl! I hope things work out and that a job opportunity comes up though. But don’t quit looking and don’t give up looking for one so soon!
I agree with everyone else, exercise is a big stress reliever, and it will give you time to think things through and return calmer and more clear minded.
(((WW))))
You are always lifting us up and now it is our turn to lift you.–Are you ready, my arms are around you and ready one, two , three…Lift) Did you feel that I lifted you.LOl
Ok for real now, you and hubby will be in my prayers. God knows what he is doing just trust him!Maybe he is allowing this time for you and hubby to do things. Never know Gods plan. Chin up my friend, thigs will get better.
It can’t be easy waiting for that “right” job offer to come along but don’t give up the exercise. It will help with the stress. Prayers and hugs for you. Take care
It’s hard to say anything that hasn’t already been said,but just finally getting it out was probably good for you. Maybe doing something a little different for a while might be good for you,such as yoga(nothing like the mind/body connection,right?),but then again I’m sure working up a good sweat in a run might be cathartic too. My husband is also unemployed at this time,has been for almost a year now,so I know all of those feelings. It is hard to remain upbeat all the time. Just take care of yourself, I’ll be thinking of you!
I know you don’t want sympathy, but I am so sorry to hear that you guys are going through this. I just know though, that God is going to take care of you! I know it’s gotta be hard, but I so hope that you don’t succumb to the depression that is trying to drag you down. Hang in there, take care of yourself and I will be praying for you! *HUGS*
“Why bother?”
well…cause you matter for starters…and it helps relieve stress, and it is best for you…etc.
My hubby lost his job in Dec…yep, almost 8 months ago…
so I understand. I just trust in the Lord…that is all I can do at this point! Oh yeah…and I also went and got a job:)
I’m sure that you’ll wake up tomorrow determined and focused. You’ll get through this somehow…I ‘m certain of it.
Hang in there! You are amazing and and inspiration. Things always work out in the end, and I know things will be fine for you, but I will pray just to add a little extra going your way.
My husband was laid off for 6 months last year. A week to the day after he got laid off, I found out I was pregnant, which was an unexpected blessing. It took everything we had to keep our lives together, we HAD to ask our family for help, we are still behind on bills… Life is hard. But you know what, you get through it. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I know it’s a rough time, I’ve been there trust me! Don’t keep this from your family anymore, let them know. If nothing else they can support you emotionally!!
Big big hugs to you.
I know how difficult it is when you don’t know what the future holds.
Its so stressful and even worse when you hold it all inside.
Good for you for writing about it here and letting it out.
Somehow things always do work out.
Things will get better you’ll see.
In the meantime lean on your friends for support just like you would want to be there for them.
Hang in there
Lori
Hang in there girl. I have never known you to be an emotional eater so don’t start now. I know it is hard not having that stability. The feeling of not knowing can drive a person crazy. Maybe he will find something even better than he had before. It is hard, but it will work out. I am sure of that. I am glad you were able to get it out. You know how it is to keep things inside. I hope you are feeling better today.
Sorry you’re going through this rough time. Hope things get worked out soon.
ohhh, I’m so sorry! Not knowing is not a good feeling, I’m right there w/ya! Hang in there! One things for certain, God has a plan for you! He is the only stability we have…….I say stick with him and he will guide you through!:)
I do hope you feel better just getting all out there on the table. It’s HARD to hold that much in and take it day in and day out. We all need releases. This place is the perfect place for it. You have friends here to help you bare the burden.
Gonna e-mail you a little sumpin sumpin. Read it, heed what it says, then curl up and take a nice lonnnnnnng nap. When you get up, hit the running and run hard, as if you were beating up all the trials and hardships you and your husband are having to endure. Run until you are spent. Then come back and read that mail one more time.
Hugggggggggggggggggggs,
Shan
There are so many people here that care about you. You dont have to hold things in. I know how you feel. My husband didnt lose his job but they laid off the entire shop except for 4 employees. My husband was the supervisor but they reduced all the supervisors to welders just so they could keep a job. His pay went wayyyyyyyyy down. But sweetie, you are doing the right thing. You just have faith and keep praying. there is something out there that will fit your husband perfectly.
I am an emotional eater and I will tell you, it only makes you feel worse. If you feel like you want to sleep, then do it. (I agree with Shan) Then run your booty off. THAT will clear your head.
hang in there hun
I know life is full of ups and downs.
All I can say is trust in God to provide for you and your family. I will keep your family in my prayers and pray that your husband finds work soon.
You know the saying God may not come when you call but he is always on time.
about 5 years ago……..I was thrown out of a job…….that I had for 19 years……no severance……about 20 days of health coverage…….my wife was sick…….my wife passed away……..I got cancer……
The job loss was a great oppurtunity……I now have a much better job……this too shall pass……..and I am in the best shape of my life……keep trucking on…….
Hang in there, Wonder Woman! I’m praying for you.
Wonder Women,
I’m so sorry you are in such a rough patch right now. I can only imagine how stressful it must be to have your hubby out of a job. Hang in there it will turn around!
Im sorry that things are so stressful for you right now my boyfriend is having trouble finding work too. Just know that eventually things will be alright and dont give up on your exersice because exersicing will be good for stress relef as well as losing weight things will get better and I hope its soon for you