I'm a mess, my diet is a mess and blah blah blah

I’m a mess, my diet is a mess and blah blah blah

Posted June 15, 2007
File under: family, story, Weight Loss

Well, I don’t know how to start this so I will just jump in.

22 Comments so far

ToNaLiCiOuS @ June 15th, 2007

I am sorry about your mom.. But at least she is in a better place and not suffering anymore..

Your diet will be back on track.. right now you need to just get by day by day..

You are wonderful!
Helen @ June 15th, 2007

Your blog has sent me into emotional meltdown. What you wrote was truly heartfelt and your mom would be so proud if she could see your words. I only hope my baby boy will grow up loving me half as much as you loved your mom and of course the way I love mine who I am so glad to still have here supporting me.

Please take care and keep thinking of the good things not the bad. The diet will come together soon enough. x
Angela @ June 15th, 2007

Wonder woman it’s okay to feel as you do; just try not to ponder on to much; keep thinking of the good times and all that mom meant to you. She is smiling down on you! My heart and prayers go out to you and alot of times people don’t understand (especially if they have not lost a loved one) mom was proud and we are all extremely proud of you and we’re here for you! I will continue to pray for your strength. forget a diet right now. You have to concentrate of your well being at this moment 1st priority. Take a hot bath relax, try meditation or prayer it works wonder. Try and I know it’s not easy to take it one day at a time. I am here for you !!! Take Care of yourself!
Erika @ June 15th, 2007

I am very sorry for your loss, and I will say a prayer for your family.
Diane @ June 15th, 2007

WW, I’m so sorry for your loss. Allow yourself to grieve. Your mother sounds wonderful and you have every right to be feeling the way you’re feeling. You are strong and will get it together, as you put it. Just give yourself a little time.
Tracey @ June 15th, 2007

WW, I know that everything inside you is torn up! Know my prayers are with you. But Diane is right, you need to allow yourself to grieve. Grieving is a process and you can’t control when or how it happens. Be patient and have faith, WW, all your diet and exercise efforts will all come back to you and pay off again. We’re here for you when you need us!
sara @ June 15th, 2007

Please do not be too hard on yourself. You really need time to grieve, and in hard times it is hard not to resort to old habits. It is obvious how much you loved your mom, and I am sure that you are devastated. But, through all of this, you are still showing that you have a commitement to your health. And that says alot!! It sounds as though you are realizing that your old form of self comfort is no longer working, and that you are struggling to find a way to comfort yourself. This is one of the hardest times of your life, and you have made a strong enough commitement to your well being to still understand your desire to take care of yourself even through your grief. Please just give yourself a little time, and you will be back on track. You are in our thoughts and prayers, and you know that we will be here for you if you ever need us!
Tasha D. @ June 15th, 2007

I don’t think I have ever had a blog bring me to such tears before. The memories you have of your mom seem good so always remember them. I am sure that your mom is very proud of you for taking care of yourself and getting a new healthy life. It is understandable that you would fall off track. This is a very hard time for you right now. You are a strong person and you will come through this in your own time. Don’t hold anything in though. You need to “Feel” what you are feeling. Your mom is at peace now. Always remember that.

I know you will come back strong and get back on track. Just don’t feel pressured to do it. I know you will do it when you are ready. Welcome back and you know I am always here for you.
Heather @ June 15th, 2007

I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost my mom a little over a year ago to cancer. I know how you are feeling. If you ever need to talk, please drop me a line and I will get back to you ASAP. Yesterday was not a good day for me. Thinking about my mom a lot. Take care of yourself.
Shari @ June 15th, 2007

Oh jeez now I’m crying. WW it is normal for you to feel this after a loss. GIve yourself time, I mean to top things off TOM decided to stop in for a visit. When you are ready to continue ith your diet, you’ll do it. Plus you have all of us here willing to listen and give you advice and just help you through this. Just please don’t be too hard on yourself and don’t feel pressured.
Julie @ June 15th, 2007

i’m so sorry. it makes me want to call my mom and dad right now and tell them i love them. just want to let you know the team is all in it with you and we have been pulling this week and trying our hardest. your diet will get back on track you just need this time to grieve. my thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.
Maggie @ June 15th, 2007

I’m so sorry about your loss. Mom’s are special people and when they’re gone, it’s like losing a limb. I lost my mom and dad three years ago and I still think about how great they were all the time. I’ve finally got to the point where I can think about them (and all the good times) without crying (most of the time). Time heals all wounds and one day you’ll be able to remember how awesome your mom was without breaking down. It’ll actually bring a melancholy smile to your face.

Don’t worry about your diet right now…just take the time you need to grieve and heal. Your mother loved you and would want you to take care of yourself. Always remember that.

I’ll be praying for you.
FiestyKitty Kama @ June 15th, 2007

Ok, you just brought tears to my eyes, and reminded me how grateful I am for my parents.

Hey, it is natural to feel what you are feeling, it is part of the grief process. Just know that me, and all your buddies are here for you, and we love you. I know it is hard, but it will get better. Give yourself a break, the wieght will come off, but you need to have time to grieve, too. Love ya lots!
Nicole @ June 15th, 2007

Wonder women, that is your name. Because youare a wonderious (don’t even know it that’s a word). women. Everyone I know here admires you and looks up to you. You are so supportive, and a strong women. You are always give out motive, advice, and anything else you can. I am sure your mom is proud of you. You just need to have the grieving time and just let your mind and body take it all in.

We will all be here when you are emtionally and physically ready. I am so sorry for you loss and I will keep you in my prayers. I will send some good vibes your way too. Hang in thre and you will bouce back to those feets.
Cindy @ June 15th, 2007

Wow. What can I possibly say to you in your greatest time of need? I am so sorry for your loss. Your mother sounds like a wonderful woman. That must be where you got all of your wonderful qualities. I have known you for a short time and am in awe of your strength, generosity, and caring spirit. I know that you may not feel those qualities in yourself right now but they are there. Remember to draw strength from God. He’s big enough to take on all your cares and worries and sorrows and He wants you to come to Him. I may not be able to be there to let you lean on my shoulder and cry, but He is. Lean on Him. Also, know that you are loved and admired deeply by all of your buddies. We are here to support you through more than just your weight loss. We are here to support you through the ups and downs of life. As far as your “diet” goes, don’t worry about it. Like I said, you are a strong woman and will come back and kick all our butts very soon. Just take your time and come back when you are ready. We love you.
Shannon @ June 15th, 2007

Your Mom sounded like quite the woman and a great Mom. Even though you have pictures of her, remember also to look in the mirror at yourself, she is always there looking back at you. My heart goes out to you so much right now WW. Please don’t let your weight keep getting you down. You know it’s just temporary. It’s tough right now, grieve, give yourself that time. Sending lots of hugs your way!
Nikki @ June 16th, 2007

Wow Wonder Woman, this is such a touching blog. This loss is a lot to take in and although you are really “Wonder Woman” you are also human. An emotional being with thoughts and feelings that are constant. It will take some time for you to work through everything you’re going through….the emotions, adjustements, memories, etc. but you will get through it and I know one day it will just hit you and you’ll be back full force. So what if you gain 5 lbs or whatever? That will be gone a couple weeks after your comeback! I know that you don’t want to get off track because of all your hard work, but WW, your feelings and emotions are valid and you should express them and not feel guilty about how you deal with them right now. You’ve just suffered a tremendous loss. We are all here for you and I know you will be back in the game in no time…….
Tammy @ June 17th, 2007

I’m so sorry for the recent loss of your mom and previous loss of your dad. I almost cried reading your precious memories. Hold on to them maybe even write them all down in a journal. You do not have to get it together. You deserve to grieve. You need to grieve. Life as you’ve always known it has changed! I really feel for you ( I still might cry) It’s very clear that you’re a very strong woman but everyone needs to let themselves fall apart sometime.
Holding in all of that pain will affect you physically. Good luck. I’ll be thinking of you.
Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope to not take my parents for granted anymore.
May God grant you the peace and mercy you need to get through this.
JK @ June 19th, 2007

I am so sorry for your loss… you are in our prayers.

jk
Catrina @ June 19th, 2007

I have been feeling so bad for you, I just wish I could hug you and say things that would make you feel better. I know I can do neither. Just know that you’re in my heart, thoughts and prayers.
Nicole @ June 20th, 2007

I’m very sorry to hear about what happened to your mother. I know how it feels to have someone close to you slowly leave. Yeah you’re right I am wonderin how you can think about your diet with what is going on around you…but that just proves how strong you are and how much your mother has taught you. Stay focused on the future and think of your wonderful family. Everyone knows that the mother is the most powerful influence in the family thus tends to have to be the strongest for everyone. So stay strong and thank you!

-Nicole

You truly are super woman…you learned from the best
Veronica @ June 21st, 2007

Hi WW, your loss pains me. I also lost my mom, she passed 12 years ago but I was only 19. It has been so hard. The loss of anyone is a struggle but a mother, wow. They are saintly, and being without yours is hard I know. You know what I did? I started a seperate journal for each of my kids, I write in them everyday. Cute things they did, how they make me mad etc… Its my legacy. You should try it. Or write a short story about your mom and share it w/your kids or just hang on to it. Kinda like self healing, its good for the spirit and soul. Its been so long I cant even remember her laugh. I hurt everyday. Im sending you my prayers and respects to your family. You are a very strong woman, you inspire me and all the other buddies. I hope that your sorrow will soon be filled with peace.