Givers and Takers
I’m turning 38 in a few months and every year I learn or start realizing more about myself. I start seeing what really has been going on or what is going on. I start seeing things for what they are. Every year I grow a little stronger than the last. Stronger or hateful? Or maybe both.
Sometimes I think people are born a certain way. Some people are naturally born Takers and some are born Givers. The Takers can grow up and learn to change or keep being Takers. Givers can grow up giving and become resentful or they just keep on giving.
All my life I think I have been a giver. And I don’t mean money (although I have done that) but with time and emotion. Alot of friends I have had have been takers. Want to discuss their problems over and over. I make time for them even when it effects my normal family life. They want to take as much from me as they can but run away when I need them to be understanding. They can make a million mistakes and I forgive and over look but I make one and on comes the guilt they bring me. This happens to me over and over and I wonder if there is something in me that shows this off to people. Do I have a big sign on my forehead that says “Easy to take andvantage of”. Only a close two or three have not been this way but have been partners and are happy for you when this or that comes your way. But, for many years I have had the Takers in my life and that includes family. Coming around when things are only needed but they leave as fast as they came. They want me to chase them. They feel neglected so they want me to chase. I’m tired of chasing. I’m tired of the guilt people can bring on me. Sick and tired. I may have been born in such a way that people think I can be taken advantage of but that doesn’t mean I have to live that way.
If I can beat weightloss, I can beat alot of other things. And that includes beating the Takers too.
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